Tuesday, August 12, 2025

Three Beautiful Things 08-11-2025: Gibbs Gets Spiffed Up, I'm On an Acrostic Streak, Easy Dinner

1. It's fun taking Gibbs to the groomer. He arrives eager to be cleaned and clipped and when I return to pick him up he jumps all over me with joy that he feels so clean and looks so handsome. 

2. I'm streaky. I go on book reading streaks. Movie watching streaks. Music streaks. I never break Joe DiMaggio's record. My streaks are shorter. Today, I continued an acrostic puzzle streak. For much of the day, it was all I wanted to do. It was a stimulating and challenging way to stay out of the sun and heat. 

3. I've neglected to take advantage of having these cans of tomato, corn, and okra that Debbie bought, but today I opened one of them, added a can of chickpeas, and stirred in some leftover jasmine rice. Fixing such an easy meal meant I wasn't pulled away from the acrostic puzzles too long (ha!). I thoroughly enjoyed this meal. 

Monday, August 11, 2025

Three Beautiful Things 08-10-2025: Catching Up with Debbie, Postmodern Jukebox Videos, Simple Dinner

 1. For the last ten or eleven days, Debbie has spent time with family on Lake Michigan and in Woodbridge, VA. Over those days, she kept me posted about how things were going with terrific photos and text messages, but this evening we had an extended phone call now that she's back in Valley Cottage, NY. 

Debbie's voice was exhausted from the travel and the intensity of concentrated time with so many people over a short time, but we talked for over an hour and we both have a much clearer picture of what's going on in each of our worlds. 

We are accustomed to dealing with uncertainty and here we are again. While we know things are solid between us, that things at home in Kellogg are going very well,  that Debbie is doing exactly what she needs to be doing, and that we both agree a hundred percent+ on that, we don't know just yet when we'll see each other next. 

2. From time to time, I thoroughly enjoy watching videos of Postmodern Jukebox covering well-known songs by transforming them into wholly different genres of music than how we know them.  Today I discovered a recently posted video of Postmodern Jukebox performing "House of the Rising Sun" in the style of soul music, featuring a superb soul singer I hadn't heard of named LaVance Colley. (I'm not very familiar with soul music on the whole.) 

Before I knew it I was happily watching Postmodern Jukebox on video after video enjoying songs like "Time of the Season", "Stayin' Alive", "The Chain", "Seven Nation Army", and others performed superbly in musical styles miles away from how The Zombies, Bee Gees, Fleetwood Mac, and The White Stripes originally recorded and performed these songs. 

3. A bed of rice, a generously peppered, salted, and garlic powdered ground beef patty, some fried (unbreaded) rings of white onion, and a vegetable loaded green salad turned out to be just the simple and tasty dinner I needed with so much on my mind after Debbie and I had our jam-packed conversation. 

Sunday, August 10, 2025

Three Beautiful Things 08-09-2025: The Perils of Perfectionism Are On My Mind

 1. Online, its title is "The Pain of Perfectionism". In the hard copy August 11, 2025 issue of The New Yorker, it's titled "Enemy of the Good". It's an article by Leslie Jamison in which she interviews and discusses the work of two psychology specialists, Gordon Flett and Paul Hewitt, whose life work has focused on the problem of perfectionism.

On our sibling outing to Clark Fork, the subject of perfectionism came up and we discussed it in relation to how it can contribute to crippling chronic clinical depression. 

I was blown away by the timing of this New Yorker article arriving in my mailbox Friday and was grateful for how it added to my meager understanding of perfectionism and how Christy, Carol, and I were right on the money in ways we discussed it in the car. 

Flett and Hewitt's work goes back over thirty years. Rather than go into detail about it in this blog post, I'll just say that perfectionism contributes to mental illness, physical ailments, and suicide rates. 

I came away from this article assured of what I've contemplated in the past: perfectionism is a demon.

If you'd like to read this article, I can email you a PDF copy of it, or I can send it to you through Facebook Messenger. I cannot text it to you. 

I don't know if this article is behind a paywall. If you'd like to check it out, here's the link: https://tinyurl.com/v6rpvmsf

2. As I read this article, I realized that I've been more plagued by people I thought (rightly or wrongly) expected perfection from me than by perfectionist tendencies within myself. 

I'll leave it at that, except to say that feeling these expectations from others (whether they had them or not) has never done me a lick of good. 

3. I also thought today about how, when I was working, I grew increasingly resistant to the idea of rigor. I guess I began to think that possibly rigor, making high demands on students, might be an enemy of the good. Couldn't students learn and perform well, I used to wonder, without the pressure of rigorous demands on them? 

I suppose some of this questioning had to do with the ways that enforcing rigor, given my personality, didn't come to me readily.  

About thirty years ago, I first read the poem "Her Right Eye Catches the Lavender" and as Gerald Sterns' poem develops, the speaker of the poem self-reflects and asks: 

Why did is take so long
for me to get lenient?

From that point forward, that question repeated itself constantly inside me. 

Oh, for sure, I backslid into not being lenient from time to time, but much more than rigor, being lenient came to govern how I approached my work and my relationships with my students. 

I hoped back then that I could convince my students to be lenient with themselves as writers. I used to encourage them to sin boldly. Let it rip. I always thought I could help students more who were not cautious as they wrote than if they wrote cautiously. 

They didn't need me to expect perfection. 

 



Saturday, August 9, 2025

Three Beautiful Things 08-08-2025: Restoring Blood Pressure, Yakkin' at The Lounge, All's Well Back Home

1. A couple of low blood pressure readings today led me to increase my water intake and eat a salted bowl of popcorn and it worked: my blood pressure returned to a much more acceptable level. 

2. With my blood pressure restored, the low level of lightheadedness I experienced earlier in the day lifted, and I not only felt much better, I rocketed up to The Lounge and met Ed for a couple of Bud Zeros and had a great time yakkin' with Ed, Cas, and then Pete Miller. 

It was a relaxing hour or so. 

Just right. 

3. Back home, I checked my blood pressure again. 

It was in good shape. 

I fixed myself a delicious shrimp and vegetable stir fry.

I also laundered some bedding, 

I then thoroughly enjoyed the comfort of crisp clean sheets! 

Friday, August 8, 2025

Three Beautiful Things 08-07-2025: Manual Bill Paying, Did You Get It?, Thanks Hon

 1. In the world of Zelle, Venmo, PayPal, auto payments, auto withdrawals, and so on that's grown and developed over the years, I am down to only writing three checks to pay bills every month. Today, I wrote and either mailed or delivered those bills so that I'll continue to have water come out of the tap, the collectors pick up my garbage each week, and my lawn mowed, trimmed, and blown when it needs it. 

2. Did any of you reading this blog post happen to work the Thursday, August 8th New York Times crossword puzzle? I was able to fill out the grid, but the theme of this puzzle was totally lost on me. After finishing the puzzle, I read the explanation of the puzzle that the NYTimes posts online for every puzzle and then I understood the theme. But did any of you figure out how the theme (dare I say gimmick?) of this puzzle worked? If you did, I heartily congratulate you -- my mind isn't quite flexible enough (yet?) to figure out puzzles that work like this one did. Maybe one day my mind will get more elastic. 

3. I have practical reasons for ordering groceries online at Walmart and having them brought to me in the parking lot.

But, you know what? 

Along with enjoying the convenience, I relish how nice, friendly, sweet, and helpful the employees are who bring the groceries out to the car. 

I can't remember, as I write this, if the grocery deliverer today called me "sweetie", "hon", "honey", "sweetheart", "darlin'", or was it another really nice name?, but it made our transaction very enjoyable and I wondered why I've never done this, ever. I've never said back to a server or a barista or a Walmart grocery delivery person anything like, "OK, hon" or "thanks darlin'" or "appreciate it sweetheart". 

Maybe it's just not in me. 

Sigh.



Thursday, August 7, 2025

Three Beautiful Things 08-06-2025: The Gray Overcast Skies Uplift Me, Breakfast at Cougar Bay with Jeff, Scenic Drive to the Casino

1. Labs at Kootenai. Specialty labs at Sacred Heart. Lots of vials! 

It all went smoothly and the gray overcast skies greatly enhanced my enjoyment of driving to CdA and Spokane. I know it's common for people to be bummed out by gray weather and uplifted by sunny days, but I'm the opposite. The sun doesn't give me energy but saps it out of me whereas the cooler gray days energize me, raise my spirits. 

2. In between my stops at the two medical centers, I cruised to Cougar Bay on Lake CdA and visited longtime friend Jeff Steve at the lake house where he grew up, overlooking the bay and the lake. He fixed us a bracing and delicious breakfast. I got to meet his longtime friend, Kit, who is a longtime Eugene resident, but our paths never crossed there it seems.  I enjoyed getting acquainted with Kit and had a most enjoyable visit with Jeff, especially as he told me about new developments in his world as a builder of canoes, kayaks, surf boards, and standing paddle boards. 

3. I left Sacred Heart and made my way to Pines Road and drove south to Freeman, Rockford, and on into Idaho where I stopped in at the CdA Casino for an hour or so of Winning Wednesday fun. I relaxed, kept my losses low today, and, after I used the free play money I got for this week, I used my August food voucher and enjoyed a mushroom and Swiss burger on the house. 

My hour and a half playing and dining was fun. Even more fun and enjoyable, though, was the drive from South Spokane through pine forest land and golden grain fields through Freeman and Rockford. I enjoyed the drive so much that I'm thinking about adding some time to my next trip to the casino and driving this Spokane Valley to Rockford route again, possibly stopping at the Harvest Moon in Rockford for a bite to eat. 


Come to think of it, this might be a fun trip to make after my next labs at Kootenai. 

Unless I hear differently, that should be in two weeks. 

Wednesday, August 6, 2025

Three Beautiful Things 08-05-2025: Mark Telford's Change, Sylvia Telford's Frustration and Insight, Party Wings in the Wok

1. It's remarkable to me that at least in the early days of assuming his role as a local bank manager in Dover, after having been an international banker conducting business by hopping from one European country to another, that Mark Telford (played by Peter Barkworth), the titular character of the 1979 ten episode series, Telford's Change, is able to apply the crenative thinking and problem solving that worked so well in high stakes international deal making to the humble situations of everyday people looking to the bank for help in Dover. 

Beginner's luck? 

I'll keep watching to find out. 

2. On the domestic front, his marriage to Sylvia (played superbly by Hannah Gordon) is not proceeding well at all. Hannah Gordon's portrayal of Sylvia as insightful and frustrated, unwilling to move to Dover and eager to establish herself as a behind the scenes employee in the theater world of London is magnificent. I won't say much more except I find myself hanging on her every word as she expresses her frustration with her husband and examining myself as a husband now, yes, but also over years long gone, starting in 1976. I'm also wondering how closely I listened to her and how much I learned when I first watched this series, with my first wife, in England, in 1979.

3. I had fun for a few minutes at dinner time quick frying chicken party wings in hot oil in the wok and doing my best to get panko to stick to them as I enjoyed them for dinner. 

Tuesday, August 5, 2025

Three Beautiful Things 08-04-2025: *This Sporting Life* Taxed Me, Art and Darkness, *Telford's Change*: Ep 1

1. It's a great pleasure for me that The Criterion Channel keeps the collection titled The British New Wave available, maybe permanently? 

For starters, film critic Alicia Malone gives a superb introduction to the collection, focusing on the vision, directors, and actors of this short-lived movement in cinema.

These movies, made between about 1959 and 1963, for the most part, take as their subject matter the lives of working class men and women in industrial town and cities in the north of England. 

Most of these movies were shot in black and white and often feel as much like documentaries as fictional movies. 

I have to brace myself before I watch these movies. They often feature angry, disillusioned, and sometimes violent men in volatile relationships with women. The movies I've watched in this collection have been tense, sometimes brutal, often bleak. 

Some time ago, I had watched Albert Finney and Rachel Roberts in the British New Wave movie, Saturday Night and Sunday Morning and after seeing Rachel Roberts in Murder on the Orient Express, I wanted to watch her in another movie. 

Therefore, today I clicked on This Sporting Life (1963) to watch Rachel Roberts perform with Richard Harris. 

I admired the honesty and naked emotional content of this movie as well as the imaginative ways the movie told its story and how it was filmed. 

I also had a lot of trouble enduring its tension and outbursts of violence. 

Both Richard Harris and Rachel Roberts portrayed the grief, despair, and disillusionment of their characters brilliantly. 

The movie focused primarily on Richard Harris's character, Frank Machin, a rugby player and a man divided between his hunger for love and companionship and his aggressive drive for control and power, whether on the rugby pitch or in his relationship with the widow Margaret Hammond, played by Rachel Roberts. 

Watching this movie to its end was taxing, but I'm glad I stuck with it, not because I enjoyed its subject matter or felt good about the story, but because as a work of art, as a showcase of great writing, acting, and filmmaking, and as a searing look at the lives of working class people in relation to moneyed people, this was an unforgettably superb movie. 

2. I thought a lot today about how when I was younger, I almost thrived on watching movies like This Sporting Life. I don't know when the change occurred, when it became more and more taxing for me to watch frank portrayals of brokenness, violence, and despair. 

I concluded today that when I was younger, I found these movies exciting because I found art itself exciting. 

Discovering that storytellers, poets, filmmakers, painters, and other artists could strike so deeply into the core of human experience thrilled me. I think I'd been led to avoid or deny darkness, to seek out stories and movies that make us feel good. But, there was plenty in life, even as a guy in my late teens and early 20s, that I didn't feel good about and through plays, poems, novels, movies, and other art forms, I discovered I wasn't alone. The experience of feeling connected to Shakespeare, Flannery O'Connor, Rembrandt, and many others exhilarated me so much that I couldn't get enough of this art, whether the content was uplifting or bleak. 

I would hear others say that dark stories were so depressing and within myself I'd think, "No, it wasn't. It was a brilliant portrayal of what is dark in life, but executed so brilliantly that it's not depressing."

Now that I'm older and possibly more aware of the weight of the darker elements of life, I still appreciate the artistic brilliance of a movie like This Sporting Life, but my appreciation of the art no longer exceeds the difficulty of confronting the difficult realities of human life.

As a result, I can't binge watch Broadchurch and I can't come to the end of This Sporting Life and do what I did when I was young and load up another similarly bleak movie.

I need time now that I didn't need when I was younger to recover. 

3. After fixing myself yet another vegetable stir fry for dinner, I did what turned out to be smart. 

I watched the first episode of Telford's Change

The setting, tone, language, and concerns of Telford's Change are very different from the movies of the British New Wave. 

But, like those movies, as this first episode developed, Telford's Change has at its core conflict between a man and a woman -- in this case, between Mark Telford and his wife Sylvia, played by the formidable Hannah Gordon.

The Telfords live in a world that contrasts sharply from the working class lives portrayed in the British New Wave movies. 

But wealth and comfort do not insulate Mark and Sylvia Telford from conflict and resentments in their marriage and as Mark Telford makes his change, as he leaves the world of international banking to become the manager of a small branch bank in Dover, the Telford's conflicts grow and the next nine episodes will examine what direction each of their lives moves in and whether they can find a way to resolve the difficulties that simmer and sometimes boil over between them. 

Monday, August 4, 2025

Three Beautiful Things 08-03-2025: Corn Casserole for Family Dinner, Olivia Colman in *Broadchurch*, OMG! *The Dresser*

 1. This afternoon I melted a stick of butter, let it cool, and added to it an 8 oz container of sour cream and two eggs. I whisked it all together. 

Into this mixture, I added about four chopped slices of bacon fried crisp, a can of kernel corn and a can of creamed corn, and a small box of Jiffy muffin mix. I stirred it up, sprayed Pam on a Pyrex baking dish, poured the mixture into the dish, and baked it at 350 degrees. 

After a half an hour, I removed this corn casserole from the oven. As I figured it would be, it was jiggly. I topped it, at this point, with grated sharp cheddar cheese, returned it to the oven, and twenty minutes later the corn casserole was baked and ready to rest.

Around 5:30, I showed up with my family dinner assignment completed to Carol and Paul's patio.  Christy was in charge of dinner. She assigned Cosette to make an appetizer and Cosette presented a plate of superb twice-baked potatoes. Christy made a summer cocktail. 

Upon finishing the appetizers, we dove into the main event: Christy prepared meat falling off the bones baby back ribs, Carol (and Paul?) prepared a fresh and tasty green salad, I offered the corn casserole I made, and Christy added garlic bread to our meal. We were all very impressed with how beautifully each part of the meal complimented the others and we enjoyed a cooling and refreshing dessert: Christy brought ice cream Drumsticks. 

It was fun having Cosette, Bucky, and Taylor with us and a most welcome relief that the temperatures were moderate and an occasional breeze made being outside even more comfortable. 

2. Having watched the stellar actresses work in Murder on the Orient Express moved me to want to watch one of my favorite contemporaries, Olivia Colman, this afternoon. She, along with David Tennant, are the leads in a British detective series, Broadchurch

From her first appearance in this series' first episode to its end, Olivia Colman filled me admiration and moved me to tears. I love her work. 

If I ever needed a reminder as to why, in general, I do not (maybe cannot) binge watch a series like this, Broadchurch provided it. 

The series opens with the death of an eleven-year-old boy followed his family, the town of Broadchurch, and the media finding out, all of which intensely unsettled me. 

At the episode's end, I couldn't go on to Episode 2. I needed time to settle down, to let my concern for Olivia Colman's character cool, and time to slow down my racing mind. Will I watch an episode a day? One or two episodes a week? I don't know. I only know that I won't be watching one episode after another after another in the same day. 

3. When I returned home from family dinner, a strong desire to watch The Dresser overcame me. I'm sure since this movie hit the theaters in 1983-84 that I've watched it at least a half a dozen times, maybe ten. 

Murder on the Orient Express inspired me to want to watch more Albert Finney, to watch him play in this move the role of an aging Shakespearan actor leading a traveling theater company during the German bombing of England in WWII.  The actor, known only as Sir, is experiencing a descent into madness similar to Shakespeare's King Lear and the tempest in his mind is not, as in King Lear, made external by a thunderstorm, but by the fire bombings and the savagery of the Nazis war on England. 

Sir, and Albert Finney's remarkable portrayal of him, is mammoth, attention grabbing, even dominant. It's awesome. 

But the movie isn't titled Sir

It's titled The Dresser

The story's dresser, named Norman, and played by Tom Courtenay, has been attending to preparing Sir's wardrobe, overseeing his application of makeup, preparing his baths, pouring his tea and his beers, and navigating Sir's volatility for many, many years. 

The dresser is not Sir's only devoted servant. 

The mighty Eileen Atkins plays the role of Madge who has been stage managing Sir's company's productions for nearly twenty years.

Sir's descent into madness and the passages of him acting on stage are loud, riveting, and unforgettable.

But, again, the movie is titled The Dresser, and by the end of this movie we see how it's been Norman's story all along -- and, Madge's, too -- a story of how they have been affected to the very core of their being by working in service to Sir all these years. 

I wish I could say more, but I don't want to spoil this movie if you haven't seen it and decide to watch one day. 

I will say, though, that Eileen Atkin's portrayal of Madge moved me and stuck with me long after the movie ended in a way that I had never experienced before. 

Wendy Hiller

Rachel Roberts 

Ingrid Bergman

Olivia Colman

Eileen Atkins 

What a weekend! 

Sunday, August 3, 2025

Three Beautiful Things 08-02-2025: An Ideal Day in Indiana and Wallace, An Afternoon with Agatha Christie, My Bad and Good Luck with *Telford's Change*

1. I admit it. I tend to idealize. But, when photographs from Lake Michigan start flying into my phone and I see gorgeous weather, family members relaxing,  and bountiful snacks, and, then,  when Debbie sums up pictures she sent with the word "perfect", I think my sense that all those gathered at Brian's lake house are having an ideal weekend together is accurate! 

Likewise, Christy posted pictures of herself and Cosette, Taylor, Bucky, Carol, Zoe, and Paul at the theater in Wallace and everyone looked so happy that I had to believe they had an ideal evening together, too. 

2. Here at home, I didn't rely on seeing pictures of other family members' happy times to be happy myself. I returned, after a lengthy hiatus, to movie watching today. 

I did a Bing search for independent movies of the 1970s, thinking the result would be movies like The King of Marvin Gardens or The Last Picture Show, that kind of thing, but the list I read (it was one of several possibilities) included a movie I'd never seen, that I didn't know was independently produced, and whose stellar cast piqued my interest. 

So I watched the 1974 Sidney Lumet directed Agatha Christie mystery, Murder on the Orient Express

I got a huge kick out of this movie for at least two reasons. 

First, I loved watching this cast work together. Who was in it? I won't list everyone, but the cast included Albert Finney, Vanessa Redgrave, Ingrid Bergman, Wendy Hiller, Martin Balsam, Sean Connery, and one of my very favorites, Rachel Roberts. (Her presence in the movie made me want to rewatch two of her performances that are most memorable to me: her work with Albert Finney in Saturday Nights and Sunday Mornings and her mighty turn in Picnic at Hanging Rock.)

Second, the storyline was audacious, and I completely believed in it every step of the way. No suspension of disbelief for this guy. I just believed and my belief rewarded me with fun, pleasure, and admiration. Maybe what I admired most was that these stellar actors all played characters who were themselves playing characters they invented. (I won't disclose why.) Characters playing characters is one of my favorite challenges to watch actors pull off in plays and movies -- it's like Doublemint gum: it doubles my pleasure and doubles my fun. 

3. After I made myself a delicious vegetable stir fry for dinner, I decided to find out after many months if a DVD set I purchased on Etsy was any good. 

I had my doubts about this purchase when I made it, but I decided you win some, you lose all the rest, and I bought three disks that I thought would have on them the entire season of the 1979 BBC drama Telford's Change, a multi-episode series that aired on BBC on Sunday evenings. My first wife and I were traveling in England from January to early April of 1979 and, on Sundays, we made sure before we rented a room that the accommodations included a TV lounge so that we could watch the next episode and, lo and behold, whether we were in Cornwall, Wales, London, or anywhere else, we succeeded in seeing Telford's Change to its conclusion. 

I've never found a streaming service that carried this program, so when I saw that this DVD set was for sale, knowing that it had been recorded off of a television (I guess), I decided to buy it. 

Upon inspection tonight, I discovered that all the episodes were not on these three disks. 

Crucially, the first episode was missing. 

Ha! Lose all the rest. 

I tossed my purchase in the dustbin. 

But, my failed online purchase story has a happy ending. 

Since I had last checked, someone posted the entire series on YouTube and when I cast Episode 1 on the Vizio, the sound and picture were superior to the crummy DVDs I bought.

So I'll watch the series this way and all will be right with the world. 

Hey, Kenton -- you have asked me in the past if I ever found Telford's Change online. 

Now I have and here's the link:  TELFORD'S CHANGE 1 

Ads included. 

I'll let you know if I find problems in this YouTube recording of the program.